A little bit of real magic

I love being thirty. 

Though, many have asked if it’s because it’s been my best year yet? Well — honestly no. It’s not been the best …. by far. In many ways it’s been one of the hardest. 

It has been one of the most important. 

So even though I can confidently say I LOVE being thirty, and had a slight “not real” panic attack when it dawned on me that I am closer to 31 than not — I would have to tell you that I hope I always hold onto this year. 

It’s held days filled with people I love, gathered in places I cherish. This year has been woven with slow weekends and important, sometimes really hard conversations — as my community, family and myself navigate wholeness, disappointments and dreams and seasons. 

The collective unknowns and decisions of this year have forced me to slow down in ways I am still learning how to be good at. (still in a work in progress — but trying hard!) 

When I look back at the year, I know I will attribute all of the good to 1/2 of my 2017 intentions. 

— To Pursue Wonder — 

Which has felt like chasing magic a little bit everyday, challenging myself to see doses of it everywhere. It’s looked like the smell of ripe Georgia peaches, fireflies, and my friends laughing out loud. The soft glow of sunlight as it dances across my sweet niece’s face — as she looks up at the trees as though they were pure wonder in their own right. For a brief time, being given the chance to work alongside an illusionist and his team with big dreams who look at the world through the lens of real magic. 

Wonder has also looked like calling courage to my decisions and releasing the things I cannot control - family members health, the state of hearts I love, timing of dreams, and what we imagine the plan for our life is. Even more so eliminating out the b.s. of false friendships and honoring the authentic presence of relationships rooted in kindness, joy, and trust.  For me,  it's been about that core group becoming even more beautiful and important. 

Truly, I really love being 30. I almost want to throw a “Happy 1/2 Birthday” to revel in it a bit longer! 

My relationship status may have not changed — a far cry from my geographic location (which has altered several times), causing mass confusion on Bumble! 

This year has knocked me over, stood me back up, breathed deep confidence and awakened big dreams. I also finally bought myself a sexy red bathing suit + wore it. #hugewin

I hope we all have a year like this one.